Following Years

The Following Years

     The following years, after that first year, have been easier to handle. Oh, I am not saying you don't have a bad spell now and again, because you do. But, they aren't as over whelming as the first year and they don't last as long. I see clothes in the store and I think how nice they would have looked on Shelly. Or, I will turn to the person who is with me and say, "Oh, that would have looked so good on Shelly."Or "Shelly would have loved that." But, it is all with a flood of love and the warmth of the memories of Shelly. I don't run off crying anymore. And I rarely cry at her gravesite anymore.
     Her sister is finally talking about Shelly and she tells her son and daughter about their Aunt Shelly. I can talk with her about her sister now. Donna is even willing to talk about every thing she had gone through. To me that is a healing process, if you can't or won't talk about the person who has died, then you are in someway denying they died or even existed.
    I truely believe that Shelly is in Heaven with God and looking down on me and is happy that I have found away to go on with my life. I know that when it is time for me to go that I will join my lovely daughter. I am looking forward to that time, but, I am not hurrying it along. Or hoping that it would hurry up and come. When God is ready for me he will call me home just as he has my daughter and just a little over a year ago my wonderful mother.
     I hope that by reading this is has helped you in some way. I know that it has helped me. Though I do have to admit that it has made me just a little misty (in a good way). We all cope with our grief in different ways. I wish you all the best in the world and much happiness in the years ahead.